Out of the blue.

I am loved and will always find different kinds of love.

A boy from my school came to visit me at work today. It was really really weird, lol.
I was leaning on the wall in the crew room, mouth open ready to take a bite into my pineapple pizza from Papa Johns that Shawn bought [Shawn is the manager who flew in from Chicago] when i looked to my right and saw Azzy [the boy from school] standing right there staring at me with the biggest goofy smile ever on his face. It was quite embarrassing though, but amusing. I totally stumbled over my words and put down my pizza and walked towards him, asking him what he was doing here but then I forgot about our conversation yesterday...

[flashback:]

Before our teacher let us out of class yesterday, Azzy [pronounced Ozzy] who sits next to me in class leaned over and asked me if it was okay if he asked me a question after class. I said sure no big deal, not realizing what it could be.
So once our teacher let us out we stood in the hallway and looking up at him I asked him what was up.
Azzy looked at me dead in the face and kind of had a slight confident smile on and asked me if I could go out with him sometime. Immediately I smiled and tried really hard not to laugh, only because I should have saw it coming by the way he wanted to "ask" me something, I choked out the words, "As what?!"
Completely throwing him off and I think I made him feel terrible, so I then said, "As friends right? Because I have a boyfriend." So after that part of clearance, he said "Yeah, sure just to get to know each other better."
I felt bad for saying it so straight forward but it needed to be done

[end flashback]

I basically told him where I worked after we exchanged numbers so he could text me if he'd like [I'm seriously way too nice] and so it was obvious as to how he knew I was working.
We talked a little bit about work and stuff..I don't really remember much because it wasn't really much.
He looked a bit tense and I told him to loosen up cause I was already talking about everything about me. Azzy said he was trying but I could tell he was just nervous.
Well, time passed and I had to take in a group for a game so we said our goodbyes.
Later on during the night he sent me a text and said this;
[referring back to my text]

"You can't imagine how much it sucks that you have a bf lol
Don't take this the wrong way but I really like you."

What other wrong way could I have taken it?!
I didn't respond back and he was afraid he said too much, and as me being too nice I told him it was okay and it was no problem, but I did say to stop liking me because in the end he'd get hurt.
And it's happened to me before so I am just looking out for others to not get crushed as I did. I especially don't want it to be my fault.

But anyway, my assistant Manager, Shawn got a kick out of the guys trying to bark up my tree. Then again I've grown and learned a lot so I know how to scare them away. Somewhat and to convince them that friendship is the way to go.
Then again some don't want to be my friend cause the only purpose was to get in my pants. How gross.
Thank God I can see past it all.

I wish I could have some nice good tea, curl up in my bed and forget time existed and have the whole world love me for me and not hate me, while I read a book with nothing on my shoulders.
Maybe just maybe life would be good then.
Till then, who knows?




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I wanted to post this:
Me and Gustavo from yesterday. He said he loved how his hair looked. What a dork :P