I feel like I'm being watched.

I feel somewhat stalked by a person who has recently been viewing my blog...
Sorry to say but it's very creepy, I mean of course there are tons of people who are interested in what people have to say but it would just be nice if they could leave me comments. That way I know who is viewing my blog and would allow me to view their blog as well. Thanks to statcounter I know where they are from and how frequently they visit. So please in all kindness, if you visit my blog from now on, leave me a comment. It doesn't matter if I don't know you, or we don't talk anymore, it just gives me some peace of mind.
Thanks


-Dominique

Sleep Deprivation (9/365)

I am indeed rendered exhausted as of right now. I'm not sure what it is, but I know my body is screaming at me right now. All the vigorous activities I have been doing...cartwheels, tumbles, pirouettes, dancing, walking...it all adds up to this. I am just glad that it's this week that I'm exhausted instead of next week for the audition.
I am really really nervous about it, but I am trying really hard to just go with the flow and have fun. And even if I don't pass the audition I'll have a great time with the experience! These days I try not to get worked up over things that stress me out...
Like boys, school, tests, work, auditions, Disney, etc...
Objects or people that give me stress I find relief in massages or just a basic meditating technique that helps me find strength and happiness within myself.
So, as I wait for my dinner I shall watch television, then eat dinner, take a bath, wait a little then fall asleep.
I wouldn't mind 10 hours of sleep right now...

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For photo #9 of Project #365
I give you...



Here is the one photo from the left so you can read what it says:




Another 2 frame photo to describe visually how I felt after studying, as well as when I drink that "Sleepy Time" tea.
I tried to go for that "Snow White" aspect for the second photo. It didn't come out the way I wanted it to, but I guess I'll need to figure something else out for that.
Instead of Snow White eating an apple, she drank tea and fell asleep.
:)

Xoxo,

domi

The littlest mermaid. 8/365

Today I picked up my little Jewel bug from Kindy. And how excited and joyous I was to see her tiny face shine with such happiness when she saw me! I was really really happy to see that I make her day shine. As the day went on, I took her to her Auntie Donna's house (Matt's Mom). When we were there I helped her with her homework while texting Trevor (who was texting me). I promised her that if she finished all of her homework I would take her outside to swim. So of course she did her homework, but she is still only 5 so she is distracted easily, I kind of bribed her with soda so she could finish the word completion that described animals. (It worked like a charm, yet backfired throughout the day with her bouncing off the walls) Before she finished her homework, I took her with me to get my little brother from school, as well as going to her Nana's house to get her mail, only to bring it back to Auntie Donna's house (where Nana was staying). My, my was that a trip! She knocked out for 20 minutes I am assuming since she stopped singing halfway back to the house. But that too was bad because I know she won't sleep tonight (and is probably still awake as I write this...)
Anyway, so we get back to Matt's house and she keeps on bugging me and bugging me about swimming! Finally, she finished all of her homework and I told her to put on her bathing suit. I was kind of praying it would rain but it didn't cause the sky cleared out as I walked outside. (I know, how terrible me who said she could swim in the first place...) So I let her play and burn off all of that energy she had.
I just watched her play because the water was way too cold for me to even want to jump in.

All in all she had a great time and even though playing in the pool didn't subside some of the energy, I'm sure she feels good to know that she gets attention! Jewel is the type of girl who is so lovey with a side of meltdowns...but I don't mind..

*8/365*



I like the blurred effect, it can just describe my mind when I'm with her. She's growing up so fast that it's hard to keep up with all of that energy! But my feet are in focus as I keep a close eye on the path I take when Jewel and I bond together.
I treat her like my own little sister because she is the sweetest of all and deserves the best.

Xoxo,

domi.

Disney On Ice (7/365)

Today was a fun, tiring day! Sadia took me, her Mom, her friend Radisson and Radisson's little sister, Rachel to see Disney on Ice. And what a treat it was! :]
I had so much fun watching Mickey and Minnie, Goofy & Donald, The Little Mermaid, The Lion King & Tinkerbell!
So for my 7/365 I have a picture of Sadia and I waiting for the show to start! :]



I look wicked pale! :(


xoxo,
domi

Saturday, another day. (6/365)

Exhaustion.
The one word that describes the way I feel and a little sick at the same time...
So Saturday has come to an end, just like any typical Saturday of my life. I go to work, I come home, I feel gross, I shower, I put on my jameies, I sit with my laptop in hand, I fiddle with Photoshop, I now browse Etsy.com, I chat with friends on DisBoards.com, I listen to either my ipod or Disney music on live365.com, and then Matt sometimes calls, then I sleep watching adult swim or Jon and Kate Plus 8. A typically Saturday routine indeed.
But it was a good Saturday, I felt good about myself and my outgoing-ness. The more confident I feel, the more I shine. My laugh and my smile is something I want all questers to remember. The fun times they had, instead of bad. No matter how loud or rowdy a group is, I tend to pretend that I don't hear sarcasm, or ignorance. I just laugh and joke around with them, and the feelings reciprocate, they have a liking to me because I smile and I treat them like their own age. I like that reciprocated feeling because I just love to be liked. I love to be talked to, I love having people feeling comfortable with me even though they just met me 2 minutes ago. Like the girls I talked to today while working. She looked to be 12 or 13, she wasn't ignorant, or sarcastic, she was just a girl who was curious and was scared. She clung to my side the whole game but it never bothered me. I just reassured her that there was nothing to be afraid of while playing, and she had a great time after that.
Mario came to visit me, that made me really happy. I gave him my free pass to play a game since I didn't want him to leave so soon.
I ended up getting really hyper with a hint of sugar crash- thanks to Trevor who bought me a latte (I just texted him to thank him, haha).

As long as today was, it was still enjoyable. I love my job, I love to talk, I love to make people laugh, I love the attention, I love to make magic moments for the people I meet, I love to see kids smile.
I really really really hope I make it to Disney!

*sigh* I looked up on weather.com that it's gonna rain tomorrow afternoon! That's going to stink! Especially since I am going to see Disney on Ice with Sadia tomorrow! But I'm so psyched for it! Anytime I hear Disney music from the theme parks it makes me cry! All of that magic in one place just overwhelms me. Disney truly is the happiest place on Earth to me.

:)

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6/365;

Inspired by the way I feel when I come home from work vs How I feel after I shower.




Xoxo,

domi

Reverie.

I truly am missing the missing from my life. As much as I wish for it to come back I know it probably won't. The only way to satisfy this missing is to go back to my old conversations on gtalk and read every thing I want to read.
For some reason when I place myself and all of my being into the back of my mind, inside my memories, I am replaying all of those times we had together and it seems that, that alone suffices. I am happy, I am grateful, yet I am still missing the missing.
I am happy that they have someone to love.
I am grateful for the fact that I have once brought them happiness.
Yet, I am missing them because once upon a time that person was the closest shoulder to lean on.

another friday & more happiness. (5/365)

I have found a new obsession, it can be found on etsy.com.

Belle & Boo have found a new place in my heart and forever will I collect these precious works of art of theirs. Find my happiness here.
Mandy's artwork reminds me of my childhood, with the haircut that used to be mine, and with a companion I would have adored. It makes my heart sing with such a beautiful melody. I can't complain, buying some of their work made my Friday the most peaceful Friday ever.

Even though Matt never came home this weekend, I can still find ways to get along just fine. I have read some books, but I really wished to have found a shady spot along the shore, book in hand, hat on my head, sunglasses on my face. A peaceful Friday morning, reading my favorite book, inspiring my imagination for photographs and artwork. That would have been the most perfect Friday.
But, it ended up becoming a day being called into work to fill in for my friend, Mike, since he was sick. The hustle and bustle of campers, excited to play laser tag. I didn't mind, really I didn't. They made me laugh and smile, they truly made my Friday worth while. No one ever knows what joy it brings to me when I see a young child happy that they get to play a game with their friends. Even though it's not making arts and crafts for the day, it still is good enough for me to see boys and girls alike bonding together and using tactics to attack one another-hah!
Well, as this Friday draws to a close I have indulged myself in Norah's sweet sweet voice. It makes me excited for Summer to come, the humidity, the sun, the afternoon thunderstorms, the warmth, the snow cones, the swimming days, the wet hair, the bbqs, the memories. Florida summers capture my heart as well as the family I share it with. I could not be more content with life as I am now. Although, I wish I could tweak it somewhat. I should stop being afraid to do the things I want to do and just go for it.
I shall try that.

Happy Week-end everyone and must I say this weekend came by fast.

Now, onto my 5/365...

Would my bedroom suffice?



This is what it'd look like if you were to stalk me through my bedroom window, hehe...
you better not!

Just joking...here is a picture of me reading Wolverine's Origin. I read it back in 2007 on my way back from a FIRST competition on the bus. I just stole it back from Matt's bedroom at his home, heh.



I hope you don't mind my dirty socks...


xoxo

domi

4/365

Today is a day of nothing. Class, home, class. I looked forward to having such a great day since I am not horribly sick anymore. And then..loneliness replaced itself. I want to walk around the park, but I hate how they all decide to close early or at sunset. I wish I had a companion right now that I can do things with. To fight my mind away from such loneliness.

Jeez, I need a dog...

Well, I cut my finger today, so I am assuming that was enough excitement for me in one day. Which leads to my picture for day number 4 out of 365.



I amuse myself.

I need a photography partner, but every time I go to ask my little brother he's gone out some where...
My timing is bad :-/

3/365

Day # 3 was fun. My sickness still is slightly overwhelming...but I'll over come it! Even though I'm sick, today I went to Matt's house to celebrate his Dad's birthday. Even though Matt isn't here I still went over there :]
And I got to spend some quality time with Jewel<3 She's like my little sister and I love her to death!<3 Jewel is Matt's little cousin...

And here is the picture for 3/365:



I loved 3 of them, so I put them together!

Well, I have a test tomorrow and I need to sleep!

xoxo,

domi

2/365

A race against the clock causes some rebellion from the teenager in me.



Rummaging through I found some old clothes of mine from my early high school years.
Oh how I miss being 15.

I will update later on- the sickness is killing me still.

xoxo,

domi

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1/365.

My weekend started out great and ended on a sickly note.

On Friday, Sadia organized a beach day with some of her friends and I in the morning. I decided to sleep in a bit and then head on over to the beach, but I wasn't able to go because on my way there it started to pour, so I changed course and headed over to Dillard to visit my teachers and friends. I had fun seeing my closest friends, we joked a lot and talked about other things that I don't quite remember what about... well after that nice visit, I picked up my brother early from school (of course since I was already there..) and snatched up Noelle as well (lol) and we ate lunch at Wendys. [Skipping all of the unimportant parts] we went to my house and I took my brother to work. So Noelle and I went to the mall to shop (haha) I think I spent a long time in Sanrio (I'm sorry Noelle!)
But that pretty much wrapped up my entire Friday.

Saturday, I had gotten my eyes checked at the optometrist. I complained to my doctor about this piece of dust in my eye, that looks like I can grab it but I can't! It drives me absolutely crazy! He told me I had a "floatie", and I laughed cause I remember the joke in Family Guy about it. Anyway, I got some new glasses as well so I will be wearing my specks more often these days. After-wards, my Mom and I went to the store and she bought me "Twilight the Movie" <3. (I adore the book more than the movie..) Once we got home I had to get ready for work.. What else is new?
I Party Coordinated while Trevor was on POS and Mike marshaled the games. I busted my butt off for so many parties and didn't get any tips. - Not like I really cared though. I still had a good time being silly and goofy. Once work was over Mike took me to my Grandpa's house (since my mom had my car). When I was there I then felt the creeping sickness overcome me. Which sucked!
Jessica, my cousin, came home with me and we watched "Twilight" all night long. As well as the extras. I made her laugh so much during the movie cause I made fun of it. - Really it is funny. I didn't get to sleep well that night since my nose started to get stuffy...

Sunday- The LONGEST day of my work life. I worked and worked and worked.
And got sick sick sick.

Which leads me to my first picture of my 365.


1/365:

Poor Domi:





This picture I took of me with my Canon XS, the "Dominique" sign you see there is a sign my Mommy bought me 3 years ago at the Woodstock festival in our town. It's actually a chalk board that you can write on. Thus, you see the writing I wrote on it saying I am sick. Just to let you know I am! :]




Since I have started my 365. I must not miss a day or else there is no point to it. So expect a picture a day folks! Check here for more details.

Live the life you love, Love the life you live. <3

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets;
So love the people who treat you right,
believe that everything happens for a reason.
If you get a chance, take it.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy,
They just promised it would be worth it." -Harvey Mackay


I've been thinking and thinking and thinking for the longest time that this type of thinking has affected my actions and my health. When someone destroys you in that way without them even knowing, then you know something is wrong.
I've been holding on for way too long, even when I thought I had let go.
So drop me into the ocean, so I can cleanse myself from this...
I should have known better when it came to falling in love again.
All I can do is wish it all away.
Wish it all away, before I hurt myself again.

I need a distraction from life or I'm going to go crazy...
It's time for me to take action, and not regret the things I didn't want to do!
Like go to the beach by myself and enjoy time soaking in the sun, even if your best friend doesn't call you at all.

:-/

This is going to be that emotional neglected feeling I have felt before again, the feeling that makes me cry and wish for my friends who make me happy. Rather than me surrounding myself with people who just hurt me in the end, I need to smile! It's just that...
I'm so tired of making myself vulnerable to people who are "fair-weather friends".
My Mom is always right, why do I always do this to myself?!

Well no more self-pity, it's time to dig myself out of my hole, because as my Dad said, in the end you will only have yourself, and yourself to depend on. I need to pull myself together for MY sake!

:]

My Week-end has started!

Shopping makes me happy, especially when I'm on a quest for cute things on sale! lol, Yay bargains :]
I'll update later about my adventure.

Popping in!

Hello!!!

Today I decided to drop my math class! woo hoo! Sounds quite strange to know that I am excited, right??? Well, it is for the best (but I will retake it over summer). I would have missed a test during the week of my audition and I did not want to see less than a B on my "report card". My Mom and Dad, as well as Matt are supportive with any decision I make. And it is a good thing I decided before the Withdraw deadline... Eeep! :X

Anyway, if you take a look around you can see that I have "freshened up" my page. More white, and cleanliness, to show a cheery side of me instead of that sad blue. Oh, and that banner at the top...I made that! Go Me!
The music on my page is music I find amusing and self-defining of me, if you do not enjoy what you hear, you may hit pause at anytime.

This blog will soon be more of a photoblog till I can find myself a host, to host my own web-page! Now my posts will come with pictures I take during the day to help create a better visual. But in case I don't have my camera with me, or I'm too lazy to snap a pic read this:

From now on, to keep more entertainment going, I will make comic strips of things that seem funny to me that happen to me in class :D
So please keep on visiting!

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Well Florida, thank you for this fine rain today. Even though we need it, it still makes me depressed. So I am going to make a grilled cheese sandwich and sing my favorite songs at the top of my lungs.
Thank You for Reading! :]

xoxo,

domi



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A short snippet.

Very consistent I must say, the math in my brain will kill me, the words in my brain will kill me, the US History of all Chapters in this book will kill me. What won't kill me?? Ughh, I need to take a step back, breathe in, and exhale. Phew...

That's better. Now what's even better is to procrastinate while in the middle of jotting down notes for a big Speech tomorrow that will replicate "The View" only we will discuss why poor countries are not fortunate enough to access clean and safe water, and as well we will discuss the water depletion and the solution for it. Next to these notes, I am writing sample essays, all 14 of them, that came with our study sheet that just MIGHT be on the test. Oh and only 4 of the 14 of them will be our Mid-Term exam.
I should have done this over the weekend but how can you possibly concentrate with this thing around..?



exactly...

Well, enough of my rant/post I shall take a shower, drink some tea, study for an hour, watch Jon & Kate Plus 8 for 30 minutes & continue till I finish (hopefully around 11pm)
Alright, and break!

Lay your Head Down in my Arms.

If I could have my happy days every day, I think that was the kind of life God intended it to be. Not some stressful, hell hole of a world. You work hard, you play hard till you get to your destination. Surely life is so much harder than not living your life at all, I would love to play on the beach every day with the sun in my hair with the one I love. <3

I enjoyed one week of pure bliss, with some snippets of classwork here and there, but this week is going to be crazy with major tests. Especially now that Matt went back home. I have drifted back into reality, knowing that every day is certainly not a picnic.
It crossed my mind once that College may not be for me, but I have to take what I have placed in front of me and drag my feet through just basic courses till I get down to the meat and bones of my actual major. Maybe it'll be more fun since I'll be studying what I love. I just can't believe that it's March already, soon April will be here and my 2nd Semester of College will be over. Then Summer will be here and I'll be taking some courses for 6 weeks as well...Hopefully I'll be looking forward to the Disney College Program at that time...with a double added bonus!
In the meantime I'll just put my body on autopilot and let it do the work while my mind goes back to memory lane and live on the beach till it's over.

If you believe, anything is possible

Disney has given me this certain type of confidence, the belief in myself that I can do anything I want to do. This belief in myself makes me giddy and happy, I smile all the time and see a bright future ahead of me. Finally something I FEEL good enough for, the Disney CP. So many opportunities started from the moment I was interviewed last week Thursday. I think that it went so well! I really cannot wait until April (for my audition). Although I am lacking in the acting field and some dancing techniques, I have stamina, and perserverance to try and try again. I do take the initiative to go ahead and learn the proper way to master skills needed. I see myself working at Disney, being a Character performer. Especially walking around as a Princess... this is really something I want to do.
And I'm charging in full force! :]

I bought this "Knot a Dream" bracelet from a shop in Downtown Disney that made me feel so good about myself, I'm going to wear it to my audition.
It says; "It's kind of fun to do the impossible".



Disney here I come!!!