Being ignored I think is the worst punishment than going straight to hell.
This post, my emotions are angry and emotional. I feel like someone just ripped me apart and they damn well know they did. The saying "What goes around, comes around" will bite you in the ass so badly that you'll be the one laying in your bed crying in the middle of the night because of the worst punishment ever.
Get out of my head, get out of my heart. I don't want to have anything ever to do with you again.
You have no idea as to who I am, and how much I care so much for everyone. You will never meet someone like me ever in your life who cares as much as I do, ever.
And to be ignored and out of your life is the worst torture anyone could ever put me through. But everyone says that I shouldn't let you know that your punishment is working on me. I don't care if you know because I know you don't care. You never did care anyway. I thought you were my best friend, but then again I had no idea what you thought or how you felt because you can't feel, obviously since you are doing this to me.
You're so heartless.
And like I said, you'll end up being a lonely lonely person if you continue to stab people in the back.
I'm not sorry for what I said, or what I did, or how I felt. Because I am 100% honest.
I feel sorry for you, oh I really do.
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Anyway, this song has been stuck in my head all day. So this is the song of the day;
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Broken in Two.
Loss.
I feel like I'm going through what I did a year ago, and I am. I can't deal with these emotions and feelings of despair anymore. All of my despair 5 years ago would have lead to uneventful destructive behavior. Right now all of my destructive behavior runs like scenes over and over in my mind. Why? Well, every time I am hurt I want people to eat their words and feel regret. Selfish right? Perhaps so, but it's the way we human beings are. But no one wants to feel the actual loss, it's a pain unbearable when you can never see someone you love ever, ever again. Every day is painful and you swear it's all a terrible dream. But you can't wake from it.
How can you just walk away without understanding or knowing or wondering?
One simple dishonest answer is natural in human beings. No one is out to get anyone and you can't expect honesty in everyone.
Since you no longer wish to speak to me or see me physically, I can only resort to these words on your computer screen. Hopefully this will reach to you somewhere, where ever you may be on this stormy night...
Happiness. That's all I can say, that's all I felt when you were with me. I loved hugging you, I felt like I was being sent to another place inside of my heart. I never felt like that before in my life. You were my shining light.
My explanation for my negative behavior had to do with the negativity of life. I wanted to live in my own bubble where we were locked away with no need of leaving each other.
It was so painful for you to leave the last time I saw you. I tried to tell you how afraid I was because I didn't know what was wrong with me. I started to feel like my world was crumbling underneath me and no one was there to catch me before the fall.
I didn't go to you, and you were right, I should have gone to you, but you were so busy with your own worries why should I burden you with more unnecessary stress? So, off you left and who would have known that that would have been the last time I'd ever see you again.
As I slip back into my own thoughts, my own world, my only lonesome and depressed world, I'll just stay and wait until the wind whisks me away from this very spot.
I'll always find a way to keep you right here waiting, I'll find the words to say to keep you right here waiting.
Forever more,
xoxo,
domi
I feel like I'm going through what I did a year ago, and I am. I can't deal with these emotions and feelings of despair anymore. All of my despair 5 years ago would have lead to uneventful destructive behavior. Right now all of my destructive behavior runs like scenes over and over in my mind. Why? Well, every time I am hurt I want people to eat their words and feel regret. Selfish right? Perhaps so, but it's the way we human beings are. But no one wants to feel the actual loss, it's a pain unbearable when you can never see someone you love ever, ever again. Every day is painful and you swear it's all a terrible dream. But you can't wake from it.
How can you just walk away without understanding or knowing or wondering?
One simple dishonest answer is natural in human beings. No one is out to get anyone and you can't expect honesty in everyone.
Since you no longer wish to speak to me or see me physically, I can only resort to these words on your computer screen. Hopefully this will reach to you somewhere, where ever you may be on this stormy night...
Happiness. That's all I can say, that's all I felt when you were with me. I loved hugging you, I felt like I was being sent to another place inside of my heart. I never felt like that before in my life. You were my shining light.
My explanation for my negative behavior had to do with the negativity of life. I wanted to live in my own bubble where we were locked away with no need of leaving each other.
It was so painful for you to leave the last time I saw you. I tried to tell you how afraid I was because I didn't know what was wrong with me. I started to feel like my world was crumbling underneath me and no one was there to catch me before the fall.
I didn't go to you, and you were right, I should have gone to you, but you were so busy with your own worries why should I burden you with more unnecessary stress? So, off you left and who would have known that that would have been the last time I'd ever see you again.
As I slip back into my own thoughts, my own world, my only lonesome and depressed world, I'll just stay and wait until the wind whisks me away from this very spot.
I'll always find a way to keep you right here waiting, I'll find the words to say to keep you right here waiting.
Forever more,
xoxo,
domi
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