Accidental Superstition.

Last night I felt so uneasy, I felt like I was being watched in the middle of the night. I would wake up and look around and in the corners of my eyes I would see shadows whiz past me. I could have been wrong, after all I do wear glasses so things were a bit blurry in the dark...
I felt the worst, I wanted to somewhat cry because it was the same feeling I get when usually something bad ends up happening. I kept shifting in my bed while I was on the phone with Matt, explaining how this feeling was bothersome. He just told me to relax and try to get some rest, after all I did have a test the next day.
So I eventually tried to ignore whatever type spirit thing that was making me feel uneasy to rest and in the back of my mind.

I found it quite odd that today, September 18 was one of the most odd yet best days I could have ever had in the entire month of September; one month before my birthday.
Maybe it's a sign of good luck? I'm not quite sure, things suddenly fell into place that I had in visioned. It went from enjoying my smooth ride to places and relaxing to the music I had suddenly fell in love with. From singing my new favorite song; "Love Story" by Taylor Swift, my day just kept on getting better and better.
Not one of those I found 20 dollars on the floor, just one of those the people around you are breaking the ice, friends with girlfriends still are staying your friend even though their girlfriend's hate you, taking a test, feeling so confident in myself. Walking in the rain and staring at the sunset having the biggest smile on my face as the sun rays kissed my face driving home. No one driving insanely, just one big smooth ride home. Strangers looking at me smiling at me, trying to strike up conversations. Maybe I've been glowing with happiness that it makes people want to get closer to me.
I've been improving some flaws within me lately. I've tried to take the focus off of me and focus more on how people are feeling and what their needs are besides my own. I appreciate things a lot more and it means so much to me to just have a simple smile being shot across the hallway, my way. Everything feels so beautiful, smells a lot better, feels a lot better. And the only reason why I'd ever want to cry in this amazing mood I'm in is because I'm so happy to feel so comfortable for once among all this insane chaos that was once inside of me a couple days ago have now fizzled out and has become vapor.
I'm so happy, feeling the love and since tomorrow I have no class I think I'm going to go for a drive and to just feel so relaxed. I think it's going to rain, but that part is even better.
I'm so happy, finally in so many months I am truly happy.

Thank you so much..
This smile can't be wiped off my face for awhile.