My brain has been craving so much knowlege lately that I have no idea where to begin reading and consuming words of intellect. Maybe that big boulder that was once blocking my learning ability [as ol' Mrs. Dinlocker told me once] has finally been pushed away, due to the fact that I am so curious about so many things!
Life has never seemed to be so brand new and facinating! I'm loving it!
I'm well on my way to Borders today to pick up some books on Neurology and Psychology!
Science never seemed to be so much fun.
I scare myself sometimes with these new findings...
Friday, June 27, 2008
Insanity, Revisited.
[*Warning, post is a long rant & may be grammatically incorrect*]
Exhaustion couldn't have been the better word to describe how I am feeling right now.
I am so tired, overworked, everything...
I hate waking up at 7 in the morning for a lame job that doesn't benefit me, but just provides me with money.
Honestly, I give kudos for those people who have 2 jobs [like me] and many more just to provide their family with food and shelter. America is so damn ridiculous, with prices skyrocketing I don't think I could survive on my own.
::sigh:: I don't understand why the economy sucks so badly. If we were to make things cheaper again, I think the whole stock market might cave in. And honestly I don't want that to happen...AGAIN...or ever in my generation. [*knock on wood*]
I don't understand why [I just seem to never understand] we can't help the people we claim we want to help! For example, Dean Kamen has come up with a way to purify even the nastiest of chemicals that make it safe for us to drink.[Mainly in Africa and other poor countries...] But you can already tell that it'll cost a couple thousand dollars just to purchase one of these things for the people in the middle and upper class level of society that live in the USA or UK. WHY?! SO DAMN EXPENSIVE?! Make things reasonably affordable, and helpful to others in this WORLD so we can all be healthy and happy. STOP MAKING US STRUGGLE.
This whole country is greedy [but who isn't?!] every thing is so sky high that I can at least see why we are the way we are.
I wish someone or something could help us... Eh, I think I'm moving to Australia one day, no one has any problems with them...
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Ugh,
that might have not made much sense but, give me a break it's like 9:15 in the morning. I only had about 5 hours of sleep [which is enough for a school night] but with your cousin elbowing your spine every freaking hour it's hard to stay asleep.
Well, more on to my bitch-rant I guess, I just wanted to say that I hate how people who were once my good friends have fallen magically out of my life. Like all of a sudden they hate me and don't ever want to speak to me again. It kind of sucks because this has happened all of my life...
But you know what? I really shouldn't care anymore. Those people who have stayed by me after all of this time are my true friends. I really need to feel more grateful than anything but it still sucks.
How could this have happened? Oh I know, it's the jealous people that tell [not ask!] them to stop talking to me because I might do something to whisk someone away. It is really pathetic...
FYI, I am in love with my boyfriend! Thanks!
Good grief.
We all have something to rant about don't we? I just wish that life was much more simpler and happier than it used to be. And stepping into the real world really doesn't help me much...
All I want to do is go lay down back in my bed, snuggle with my pillows and believe the world is make-believe. I would rather live in my own dreams where I can have all the friends I want, all the things I want and all the happiness I can gather up with no worries about anything.
I miss being a little kid.
:(
Exhaustion couldn't have been the better word to describe how I am feeling right now.
I am so tired, overworked, everything...
I hate waking up at 7 in the morning for a lame job that doesn't benefit me, but just provides me with money.
Honestly, I give kudos for those people who have 2 jobs [like me] and many more just to provide their family with food and shelter. America is so damn ridiculous, with prices skyrocketing I don't think I could survive on my own.
::sigh:: I don't understand why the economy sucks so badly. If we were to make things cheaper again, I think the whole stock market might cave in. And honestly I don't want that to happen...AGAIN...or ever in my generation. [*knock on wood*]
I don't understand why [I just seem to never understand] we can't help the people we claim we want to help! For example, Dean Kamen has come up with a way to purify even the nastiest of chemicals that make it safe for us to drink.[Mainly in Africa and other poor countries...] But you can already tell that it'll cost a couple thousand dollars just to purchase one of these things for the people in the middle and upper class level of society that live in the USA or UK. WHY?! SO DAMN EXPENSIVE?! Make things reasonably affordable, and helpful to others in this WORLD so we can all be healthy and happy. STOP MAKING US STRUGGLE.
This whole country is greedy [but who isn't?!] every thing is so sky high that I can at least see why we are the way we are.
I wish someone or something could help us... Eh, I think I'm moving to Australia one day, no one has any problems with them...
- - - - - - - - - - - -- -- - - - -- -- - -- - - - - --- - - - - - - -- - - - - - -
Ugh,
that might have not made much sense but, give me a break it's like 9:15 in the morning. I only had about 5 hours of sleep [which is enough for a school night] but with your cousin elbowing your spine every freaking hour it's hard to stay asleep.
Well, more on to my bitch-rant I guess, I just wanted to say that I hate how people who were once my good friends have fallen magically out of my life. Like all of a sudden they hate me and don't ever want to speak to me again. It kind of sucks because this has happened all of my life...
But you know what? I really shouldn't care anymore. Those people who have stayed by me after all of this time are my true friends. I really need to feel more grateful than anything but it still sucks.
How could this have happened? Oh I know, it's the jealous people that tell [not ask!] them to stop talking to me because I might do something to whisk someone away. It is really pathetic...
FYI, I am in love with my boyfriend! Thanks!
Good grief.
We all have something to rant about don't we? I just wish that life was much more simpler and happier than it used to be. And stepping into the real world really doesn't help me much...
All I want to do is go lay down back in my bed, snuggle with my pillows and believe the world is make-believe. I would rather live in my own dreams where I can have all the friends I want, all the things I want and all the happiness I can gather up with no worries about anything.
I miss being a little kid.
:(
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Talking with Myself.
Even though I blogged about an hour ago, I have now calmed down and feel so pleased and excited to blog about some new adventures and hobbies I have took up!
So, while I wait on my dearest boyfriend, Matt [AKA: "Oscar the Grouch"] I want to talk about Sesame Ellis. She is the most amazing photographer I have ever found on Flickr. Really, Rachel Devine is seriously amazing that now she has become so inspirational with my latest photos [on Facebook my Summer Photography album]. With looking at these photos on a daily basis [she has become an obsession] I have fallen in love with her 3 year old daughter, Gemma and her techniques she uses to capture her adorable facinated smile. My mom thinks that I should make a new Flickr account and send her some of my work [but with people stealing photographers work nowadays I'm pretty skeptical on the whole putting my images on the internet thing...] Well, it is worth a try, but she lives in Australia now! [I found that out on her Flickr blog life, lol]
Anyway, besides all of that I have a new hobby.
Scrapbooking!
Hah, but I have no time to do all of that...
It is just here at this job we get the newspaper every day, and I have a habit of looking through and reading about interesting things and clipping them out! [We can all thank Matt's dad for this one because he has like 9 scrapbooks of so many things that I love looking through them!] I plan on buying a book and putting them all together some day soon when I find the time for myself...
::sigh::
In less than 2 weeks I'm out of here though for Boston, Mass with Matt and his family! [A Graduation from them to me]. I'm super super excited to go on this trip with them because that means, over one million photos of every thing I do and see! [I need to buy an external hard drive for my computer!] lol
This will be the most amazing trip ever, but I know I'm going to miss my Mommy, Daddy and Brother super much, yet it's going to be so much fun!!! [Thank Goodness Adam's [Matt's younger brother] girlfriend, Kat is coming too [She's 16, and practically like a little sister to me] so I'm happy for that, now I have a girl close to my age to chat with the whole CAR ride up. Yes, we are driving.
Well, I am leaving here soon, I work at Laser Quest from 3:00-7:30 tonight. Then I am going to West Palm Beach to babysit my younger cousin. Mmmm Fun!
At least I have 4 days off from Laser Quest this week. Oh and I almost forgot! I get to meet the newbies today [They hired two guys last week] and they start today! Muahaha! lol, awesome.
Anyway, Later.
So, while I wait on my dearest boyfriend, Matt [AKA: "Oscar the Grouch"] I want to talk about Sesame Ellis. She is the most amazing photographer I have ever found on Flickr. Really, Rachel Devine is seriously amazing that now she has become so inspirational with my latest photos [on Facebook my Summer Photography album]. With looking at these photos on a daily basis [she has become an obsession] I have fallen in love with her 3 year old daughter, Gemma and her techniques she uses to capture her adorable facinated smile. My mom thinks that I should make a new Flickr account and send her some of my work [but with people stealing photographers work nowadays I'm pretty skeptical on the whole putting my images on the internet thing...] Well, it is worth a try, but she lives in Australia now! [I found that out on her Flickr blog life, lol]
Anyway, besides all of that I have a new hobby.
Scrapbooking!
Hah, but I have no time to do all of that...
It is just here at this job we get the newspaper every day, and I have a habit of looking through and reading about interesting things and clipping them out! [We can all thank Matt's dad for this one because he has like 9 scrapbooks of so many things that I love looking through them!] I plan on buying a book and putting them all together some day soon when I find the time for myself...
::sigh::
In less than 2 weeks I'm out of here though for Boston, Mass with Matt and his family! [A Graduation from them to me]. I'm super super excited to go on this trip with them because that means, over one million photos of every thing I do and see! [I need to buy an external hard drive for my computer!] lol
This will be the most amazing trip ever, but I know I'm going to miss my Mommy, Daddy and Brother super much, yet it's going to be so much fun!!! [Thank Goodness Adam's [Matt's younger brother] girlfriend, Kat is coming too [She's 16, and practically like a little sister to me] so I'm happy for that, now I have a girl close to my age to chat with the whole CAR ride up. Yes, we are driving.
Well, I am leaving here soon, I work at Laser Quest from 3:00-7:30 tonight. Then I am going to West Palm Beach to babysit my younger cousin. Mmmm Fun!
At least I have 4 days off from Laser Quest this week. Oh and I almost forgot! I get to meet the newbies today [They hired two guys last week] and they start today! Muahaha! lol, awesome.
Anyway, Later.
Where did my Summer go?
I have to get back into the swing of blogging. I always blogged my Freshman and Sophomore year of High School, but with that suddenly behind me I haven't found time for myself. As I sit at the desk of the most BORING job ever, I have time to contemplate and think on past memories.
Lately, I have been getting way too sentimental!!! I believe it started when I walked across the stage and received my diploma from Mrs. Stanley and hearing my family cheer me on from across the room. Graduation Day is still a pretty amazing memory, I must say.
High School is finally a closed chapter in my life, I don't think it has hit me just yet though...
I miss all of my new found friends [Noelle and DJ mainly], summer is a drag, I haven't been to the beach ONCE, I have only been working.
24 hours a day, 7 days a week [maybe exaggerating], practically no time for myself. Mainly I think it's because I took on this second job here at the Corporate Office at [Insert Bank Here]. It seemed like a lot of fun at first, but now it's a constant drag. Literally I just sit here, open mail, stamp the mail, file the mail and give the mail to a lady who then writes notes on the mail and gives it back to me, I file what I can and leave it for the other lady who is on vacation [I'm a temp until she comes back from Italy] who will really file it later. Sounds easy? Sometimes it is...but other times it's like WTF?!
I'm sitting here in a suit and high heeled shoes that are KILLING my poor feet, looking like I'm playing "secretary" for half the day.
I swing on out of here by 12 or 12:45.
BUT! My day isn't over yet because I then rush home change my clothes and run to Laser Quest! I change my persona DRASTICALLY and become the most outrageous bubbly girl this world has ever seen. Talk about exhaustion. For some odd reason I have been closing a lot [well mainly because I can only work the night shifts on Mon, Wed and Fri due to the second job] but it sucks! I just go home check Myspace and FB and crash for the night and wake up at 6AM and do it all over again! And even the days when I don't work two jobs I still have to go to LQ in the middle of the day! I hate how it CUTS right through my day! Ugh, and the worst part about it all is that I have a car, but no title and no title = no plate. But I do have a license now [woot woot]. It all just sucks for some big reason that I just don't know of yet.
I have a lot more to complain about later but I'll write another blog on it..
This one is getting far too long.
I miss everyone...
Lately, I have been getting way too sentimental!!! I believe it started when I walked across the stage and received my diploma from Mrs. Stanley and hearing my family cheer me on from across the room. Graduation Day is still a pretty amazing memory, I must say.
High School is finally a closed chapter in my life, I don't think it has hit me just yet though...
I miss all of my new found friends [Noelle and DJ mainly], summer is a drag, I haven't been to the beach ONCE, I have only been working.
24 hours a day, 7 days a week [maybe exaggerating], practically no time for myself. Mainly I think it's because I took on this second job here at the Corporate Office at [Insert Bank Here]. It seemed like a lot of fun at first, but now it's a constant drag. Literally I just sit here, open mail, stamp the mail, file the mail and give the mail to a lady who then writes notes on the mail and gives it back to me, I file what I can and leave it for the other lady who is on vacation [I'm a temp until she comes back from Italy] who will really file it later. Sounds easy? Sometimes it is...but other times it's like WTF?!
I'm sitting here in a suit and high heeled shoes that are KILLING my poor feet, looking like I'm playing "secretary" for half the day.
I swing on out of here by 12 or 12:45.
BUT! My day isn't over yet because I then rush home change my clothes and run to Laser Quest! I change my persona DRASTICALLY and become the most outrageous bubbly girl this world has ever seen. Talk about exhaustion. For some odd reason I have been closing a lot [well mainly because I can only work the night shifts on Mon, Wed and Fri due to the second job] but it sucks! I just go home check Myspace and FB and crash for the night and wake up at 6AM and do it all over again! And even the days when I don't work two jobs I still have to go to LQ in the middle of the day! I hate how it CUTS right through my day! Ugh, and the worst part about it all is that I have a car, but no title and no title = no plate. But I do have a license now [woot woot]. It all just sucks for some big reason that I just don't know of yet.
I have a lot more to complain about later but I'll write another blog on it..
This one is getting far too long.
I miss everyone...
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