A lot has happened to me physically and mentally in the past couple of days since my audition. Happiness, sadness, grief, love, missing, and passing.
My Grandpa "Grafader" is how we used to pronounce it, passed away yesterday, Easter Sunday at 10:30am (the beginning of Mass) quietly and soundly with my Mom, Uncles and Aunts and my Grandpa by his side in Hospice. My Grandpa was a fighter and a lover, he loved his children, wife and grandchildren. Everyone who met him, automatically loved him so much for his kind and loving personality. My Grandpa loved to watch Horse Racing and bet on horses, as well as play the lottery. He would always tell me jokes and we'd laugh about Family Guy. My Grandpa survived for 4 years with Lung Cancer, it wasn't until January of this year when things got a bit shaky. My family started to help him fight the cancer as it spread through his body, weakening him. But as much as I did not want him to go, I realized that he was suffering so much and it was time for him to rest. I will miss seeing him every day and hugging him and laughing with him and eating his delicious food! I hope you are with your parents and grandparents that I am sure you missed so so so much. I love you and hope to see you again. I'm sorry that I didn't get to be with you in your final moments, it was just too hard for me. But I know that you sent Matt home this past weekend because you knew I'd need someone to lean on.
I'll never forget the only Grandpa in my life that ever cared for me and was interested in the things I did. I promise not to cry anymore...well, I'll try not to.
In honor of my Grandpa, I have decided to change my Codename at work from instead of Zelda to Sunny. (My Grandpa's nickname was Sonny, but I'll spell it with a 'u' because every time he was near he'd make me smile and make me feel happy, just like how the sun makes me feel).
*My 365 is still going on, but I haven't had time to post pictures. At this time I was post the past pictures I was supposed to post up at one picture instead. That will but up sometime soon, after all this stuff sinks in and I can focus on my life again.*
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I know this. My Grandpa was like my support system till he passed away. I hope you have the strength to bear with this.
Man this sounds too familiar. I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather. I know what you're going through right now and everyone saying "sorry for you loss" rarely helps. I wish you and your family the best in coping.
I'm open if you'd like to talk or anything...(or you may be weird like me and just keep your feelings bottled up inside lol)
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