I set myself on this pedestal of high expectations and yet I don't think I'll be able to make it. A huge part of me just wants to portray a Princess but knowingly, I am do not have the characteristics of a small petite Disney Princess. I critique myself to the harshest point where I make myself cry.
No one seems to see where I am coming from. And that's fine by me...
My audition is in 3 days and I have found myself not nervous but just upset. I want to back out, yet sometimes I get so psyched up I just don't want to! It's because I know I won't get pulled for face. Disney has so many high expectations I probably won't fit the criteria. If anything I can have another job...
But I want it, yet if I didn't get it, it wouldn't kill me.
I'll just go with the flow and have fun.
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Phew! I just went and relaxed a bit...I just needed to clear my head and stare into the mirror and recite: "Mirror, mirror, on the wall, who is the fairest of them all?"
Snow White is and so she shall be. I want to be friends with Snow White.
:)
Here I come! Full force! No regrets! I will be fine in acting! I'll smile and be happy!
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Well, today I worked and worked and worked! But I had fun, fun fun! I almost lost my voice! After work I came home, then dropped my brother off at his friend's house. And on my way back home I stopped back at work and played one game with all the members. I got last place of course cause they are better than me!
Then I waited until Trevor got off work and I hung out with him for a bit...
Trevor seriously is such an amazing friend! I can't believe that we click so well, I can tell him whatever is on my mind- well not EVERYTHING cause that's weird. But we'll soon overcome a weird stage and then I can tell him everything! I always tell him how cute it is to see him gush over Katie (his girlfriend) and he thinks that I'm ridiculous lol. That's just how we are :)
He is looking forward to hanging out with me in Orlando when I get the job at Disney!
I'm excited!
:)
*14/365*
Amusing. Before sleep, I brushed my teeth and thought it'd make a good picture. Just one of those hygiene type of pictures. Plus, I love my hair! I look like a lion. Haha :P
Goodnight!
Xoxo,
domi
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