And..ACTION!

This life is getting way too annoying.
It's one big drama set on a TV for people to read and enjoy the pleasures of insane emotional bitchy people.
Friendships are just roller coasters of emotions, a time well spent or a time that was meant to be so miserable. Nothing feels right with the new friends I made, I just want my old ones back. But...the old ones are not in my life for a reason. Because they chose someone else over me, technically making them non-worthy friends. Everyone makes mistakes, so why penalize them for it? I don't talk to some people when I see them online, if there is nothing to talk about I call it online awkward-ness if I try to strike up some random form of conversation it just doesn't work.
I have a strange personality, I tend to dwell too much on one thing and that is what sends me spiraling down into this moody sadness. Quite pathetic, I know...
Yet, I am the type of girl that laughs at everything and anything. Matt says it's a kind of happiness that relaxes everyone and tensions are gone. But when I'm sad, it's like the clouds on a rainy day covering the sun.
I am not looking forward to a disappointing birthday when all I wanted to do was spend time with my friends who are probably not going to show up. So it'll be a birthday party with my boyfriend's family, and my family but no friends.
I hate that so much, I hate how I feel like I am losing that bond between them.
::sigh::
Oh well, I found my sunshine and I am going to hold onto it for a long time and I am never letting go like I did months ago.




P.S.- Tide-To-Go is the most AMAZING invention ever and works magically! :D