I'm so sorry...

My legs are shaking..a part of me wants to just throw up..
I cannot believe that this is happening to my little brother...again.
Amanda, a little 15 year old Sophomore got shot today at Dillard High School. My old High School. Never in the 4 years of being there had something like this happen. I cannot believe someone would actually shoot someone and take their life away from them.
I just can't help but stare at my little brother and wonder what is going on in his head...I know he's so heartbroken.
Him and Amanda were such close friends, they both liked each other and he was going to ask her to be his girlfriend. It sucks so much to know that someone you like was ripped away from you by someone else...

I rushed to Dillard after Shawn pleaded for me to go and get him. I disobeyed all traffic laws and got there as soon as I could to be met with police officers and news crew surrounding the school. The entire school was on lock-down and I found my way in. I ran to the office and there I found over 30 parents standing outside waiting anxiously, the look of worry creased across their foreheads. "Did the girl die? Where is my child? What is going on?!" were the many questions of parents asking staff. No one knew if the girl died...until Mrs. Stanley came over the PA with an announcement. With the tears in her voice she read a letter she wrote to the whole student body.. "Students, today there has been a terrible tragedy, a student was shot and rushed to the hospital..."and before she announced the worst she choked up, you could hear the sobs and then she said "...where she died..." that was when everyone closed their eyes and tears fell silently. Mrs. Stanley finished her announcement and that was when I looked towards the door and walked away..
I leaned against the wall and tried to take it all in, I had to get my brother home. That was when I rushed to the classroom he was in and picked him up. After I got him I had to see Mr. Calder and Mr. Euler, for some reason they are the light of any hope this school has left. The smiles on some faces and the anguish in others shook me.
It didn't sink in as of yet..

It did though when I was driving my brother home, his voice was together but then he burst into tears and said to me, "I need to see Granny." I nodded and rushed to where my Grandmother works. When we got there I never ever saw my brother run to someone the way he did today. He ran to my grandmother and into her arms he cried and cried and cried... I held both of them and cried with them. It just sucks so much to have this tragedy hit us. Even though I didn't know her, she still had a big part in my brother's life and I take that to the heart...
Shawn is going to need some counseling to get over this...
I think we all are...

It's just so hard to believe...