Insanity, Revisited.

[*Warning, post is a long rant & may be grammatically incorrect*]

Exhaustion couldn't have been the better word to describe how I am feeling right now.
I am so tired, overworked, everything...
I hate waking up at 7 in the morning for a lame job that doesn't benefit me, but just provides me with money.
Honestly, I give kudos for those people who have 2 jobs [like me] and many more just to provide their family with food and shelter. America is so damn ridiculous, with prices skyrocketing I don't think I could survive on my own.
::sigh:: I don't understand why the economy sucks so badly. If we were to make things cheaper again, I think the whole stock market might cave in. And honestly I don't want that to happen...AGAIN...or ever in my generation. [*knock on wood*]
I don't understand why [I just seem to never understand] we can't help the people we claim we want to help! For example, Dean Kamen has come up with a way to purify even the nastiest of chemicals that make it safe for us to drink.[Mainly in Africa and other poor countries...] But you can already tell that it'll cost a couple thousand dollars just to purchase one of these things for the people in the middle and upper class level of society that live in the USA or UK. WHY?! SO DAMN EXPENSIVE?! Make things reasonably affordable, and helpful to others in this WORLD so we can all be healthy and happy. STOP MAKING US STRUGGLE.
This whole country is greedy [but who isn't?!] every thing is so sky high that I can at least see why we are the way we are.
I wish someone or something could help us... Eh, I think I'm moving to Australia one day, no one has any problems with them...

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Ugh,
that might have not made much sense but, give me a break it's like 9:15 in the morning. I only had about 5 hours of sleep [which is enough for a school night] but with your cousin elbowing your spine every freaking hour it's hard to stay asleep.

Well, more on to my bitch-rant I guess, I just wanted to say that I hate how people who were once my good friends have fallen magically out of my life. Like all of a sudden they hate me and don't ever want to speak to me again. It kind of sucks because this has happened all of my life...
But you know what? I really shouldn't care anymore. Those people who have stayed by me after all of this time are my true friends. I really need to feel more grateful than anything but it still sucks.
How could this have happened? Oh I know, it's the jealous people that tell [not ask!] them to stop talking to me because I might do something to whisk someone away. It is really pathetic...
FYI, I am in love with my boyfriend! Thanks!
Good grief.

We all have something to rant about don't we? I just wish that life was much more simpler and happier than it used to be. And stepping into the real world really doesn't help me much...

All I want to do is go lay down back in my bed, snuggle with my pillows and believe the world is make-believe. I would rather live in my own dreams where I can have all the friends I want, all the things I want and all the happiness I can gather up with no worries about anything.


I miss being a little kid.

:(