Passive.

The exhaustion has finally caught up with me and the world feels so unreal to me, that sometimes I don't remember what I said..kind of scary.



"What goes up has got to fall.."

And that explains my mood for tonight..
I had a very high intake of sugar today, and if I were to have diabetes I think I would have sent myself to my death bed. People thought I was high! Okay, let me get your facts straightened out for ya! I don't Smoke, Drink, or Do Drugs! I'm a good kid, and even though I may seem crazy and a bit out there, I still am conservative, plus, I do my work when I am told to. Even as an overachiever I'm a lazy ass! When something catches my interest then I'd take the extra mile to learn about what I think is fascinating..

Anyway, sorry for that little run on sentence paragraph for a rant..
I'm pretty much exhausted from last night's "Witching Hour" I also am not feeling to great. Lately, my body feels like it's just going to malfunction, my brain has started to engage in these heavy pressure pulsating sensations. And sometimes I'd get a shock [Zap] at times, I think all the neurotransmitters are going berserk.. Maybe I'm going to die! :(
Hope not, I should get it checked out, one day. Now that I'm 18 I can go on my own...
maybe when Matt comes down during the Thanksgiving weekend I'll swing by the hospital for a CAT SCAN. Ever since Senior year started my health has took a nose dive. I've got a lot of issues that I need to take care of..
But first I am almost done studying for my psychology test..

Wish me luck.


I just want to succeed, why is everything so challenging for me? Or maybe it's because I don't have a clear head when learning? Whatev..




P.S.- Noelle I am not anorexic! Mr. Lacroix probably thinks I am! :/
Last time I weighed myself, I was pretty much over the 100 pound mark! lol..