Crashing.

I'm not the type of person who screams to the world about how I feel...unless it's on here.
My heart has dropped tremendously and it's incredible that these situations occur and play insanely in my head. I believe that one action of another is causing my downfall of sorrow and despair in my heart..and I cannot take it.
Le Sigh.
Why does he always do that to me? Every time he has an assignment, it's usually a "I can do it later" thing..but since there are so many things going on that he wants to go to he doesn't have time. Yet, sometimes when I want to talk to him, he can't talk because he is "busy."
I try so hard, not to be spiteful, but I try to keep myself more busy and more on top of certain things I am doing, that way I cannot think of him. Not in that bad way, just so I won't miss him so much..
Ugh, if life could be any more simpler.
Even Love.

What a strange word, I'm starting to second guess it's actual meaning.

I love being with him, but some days he drives me crazy and the tears fall down my face...
and I am dumped on the side of the road waiting for him to come back and give me a ride, back to what love is supposed to be..



I'm still waiting for that ride..